Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Success Without Money In the Beginning

Given that I've practically run out of money myself due to my month of unemployment, I love stories like this. An Indian girl ran away from home at age 17 to avoid being forced into a marriage, and now in her forties she's a millionaire inventor in charge of a large company. She even came to the U.S. without a single cent!

It's people like these you have to pay attention to if you ever want to be truly inspired to do something with yourself. It's frequently toned down my inspiration and desire to self-improve to think of all my money troubles, debt, career setbacks, and the like, but then when I read stories like these, where people have worked themselves up to vast wealth after starting with nothing, I call myself a wimp and get back in the game. People have had it harder than me, so my smaller problems, in comparison, should not defeat me when people like this woman seemed to not care in the first place.

Out of all my new year's resolutions the most important thing for me to do this year is answer an aside question: How does one best become durable, so that continuing problems and obstacles does not cause one to falter, degrade, and quit? A huge problem in my self-improvement is that I've often given up certain routines or did self-destructive things, such as not save my money, and coasted a few years with my eyes on my problems, not knowing how to defeat or endure them. It's taken a few years for me to actually identify this as a question, but now that I've have it's the most important one of the year.

Luckily, it seems to be becoming rapidly answer. I'm identifying the components of it -- to elaborate later -- and observing people who went through harsher times to see what they did, in order to man up and deal with my smaller things. Two books on my must-read list are Ping Fu's Bend Not Break and Alex Lickerman's The Undefeated Mind. One for inspiration, one for practical advice.

Whatever position you may be in, pay attention to the greats. A lot of them had to do a lot of suffering before they've gotten to their height.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Right Now: Concentrating on Concentration

As of current my main short-term focus is on my concentration. I attended the live webcast event of Alex Epstein's course on productivity, and he elaborated on many fundamentals I already hold to be true, particularly that concentration is an important skill for efficiency and effectivity. It's a skill that grows with exercise, takes awhile to build up momentum in per session, and, once strong, can make you SUPER-fast, insightful, intelligent, etc. I highly recommend Epstein's course; it's just a scant hour recording, for which the fruits of knowledge are enormous.

Anyhow, in examining the role of concentration I remembered that the times where my concentration was the strongest I was also at my highest rate of efficiency, strongest intelligence, most stable emotionally, and so on. In other words, I was as strong in my character as I could ever hope to be, and no singular skill contributed as much to that as concentration. It led to the best work ethic, emotional health, personality, and more.

Though, I'd like to hold back on my analysis a little bit to save material for a longer article, but let's just say concentration is fundamental and essential, and probably the most important thing I need to do for myself is nurture it to be as strong as it possibly can. In fact, I'm delaying my book for a bit, as I also remembered that my best writing, by far, is done when I'm capable of totally immersing myself in writing and thinking, losing awareness of any foreign thoughts or distractions. There's a world of difference in the quality of my writing, and I fret to put out a quick book when my mental focus isn't that powerful, especially with as much as I've weakened it over months. I'm guilty of fidgeting, unproductive paces, and other minor, tiny things that chip away at keeping one's eyes on just one thing.

One I can get desirable concentration going . . . and stick to it . . . I'll get back to this blog, my book, my studies, and so force. Life is too short to exert yourself only halfway at any one thing, so I'm going to nurture my fundamental mental skill to unleash myself.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Supension of Posting for Erratic Examination

I've decided to suspend posting a a little while -- like a week and a half -- so that I can dedicate my energy almost entirely on this book I'm writing. Trying to balance it out with blog posting, at least the current way I'm doing it, is too difficult.

Furthermore, I'm going to reexamine my posting habits, for right now I think the current intensity of the pacing is waaaay too much for me. On some odd days I might really be able to put out the output, but that'll lead to burnout in no time. The editing phase is practically non-existent as it currently stands. Wouldn't it be better to lessen the quantity to uppen the quality?

Yes, it may seem impossible to you that you read that I intend to write a book in a little over a week, but given its brief length it's doable. I'm aiming more for a collection of long essays.

But anyhow, I need to restructure my habits in a way that is more effective towards boosting the quality of my writing. The current setup involves too much publishing and not enough refinement.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Due Course to Prosperity: Small Time Author?

Permission for a slight deviation? (Well, I don't need your permission!)

Anyhow, in thinking of a friend's suggestion I've come to another potential money-making idea: Publishing short books, primarily long essays, on Amazon.com! When I think about the majority of the type of posting I do here on *A Giant Doing* I'm seeing that I'm often prone to long, long, looong articles, and to try and keep that up for seven days a week means an awful lot of free material, no? With an empty tip jar, that makes you a moocher!

(Kidding.)

Anyways, I figure that a lot of that long writing might be better suited for pay-per-download, from anywhere from a scant fifty cents to five dollars, and count on the volume of production from there. Sounds workable, no? Plus, with the payments I think I'll better afford  time to hone the writing more meticulously, and to put out a better product. The primary concern is marketing and advertising, and graphic design of covers.

I am currently working on a book, but I'm not going to unleash details about it until its actual release, not even giving hints. It shall come when it comes.

How I'll be able to balance the pursuit with *A Giant Doing* is still of question right now, as I have trouble really putting out concise posts; I really like doing the long stuff.  (And don't forget to send me stuff!)

Whatever the case, I must exert myself at something, to innovate for my survival. 

Monday, January 21, 2013

On Being Assertive: Thinking Ahead to Get Ahead

After my last post about Factor X I undertook an extremely long introspection to understand how I've become so recessive, in contrast to my late teenage years in which I was more dominant in personality. Truth is, I did assert myself a lot more in my younger days, but a series of events made me transform otherwise, mainly due to my ignorance.

I think the primary factor in my recessiveness is that I've been so deeply exposed to irrational behaviors, once even trapped with it for years, that I developed a meeker personality as a self-defense against what I was going through, and it was only necessary in so far that I didn't understand the full nature of what I was dealing with. I didn't know then what I know now, so I wasn't capable of planning out the actions I shall do now.

Counted, there's really three fears that cause me to hesitate in asserting myself, and they are that 1.) I might have to deal with an emotional outburst from somebody, 2.) suffer professional consequences (such as being fired), 3.) or even be assaulted. But I realize now that some of these fears are preposterous, some of the situations I suffered in I was actually winning in, and others are knowable enough to plan around.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

My Qualm with Other Inspirational Resources

Small sort of analysis to make it clearer as to exactly what influences my writing process. Truth be told -- unless it's already obvious -- whenever I come up with stuff on self-improvement or inspiration it's mostly of my own concoction -- that is, until you guys contribute -- and I have my peeve about other inspirational websites and resources.

In short, I think most are darned ineffective since they don't lay bridges between the ideals they're trying to inspire you with and the concrete way of getting there. More often than not I find it's all lofty words that don't really move anyone, even though they're intended to move and you want them to move you, but they don't.

To use a real-world example, at a job I had at a hotel they had various posters on the walls, and I recall several of them spoke about the "human truths," which was meant to tell of what people yearn for par human nature and how we, as hotel staff, should be encouraged to reach our best. I write that vaguely since the posters themselves were utterly vague too. One poster spoke of the human truth of "I want to reach my full potential," with a guy lighting a rocket tied to his back, and some text to accompany it. The accompanying text did not do much to clarify what reaching one's "full potential" means.

And that's what bothers me about the way most inspirational resources, especially on the internet, conduct themselves: Useless vagueness! What does reaching one's "full potential" mean, from this poster? How does one go about it? What specific images could one summon to move forward? The poster is so vague it's no help for a person wanting to reach his full potential. He doesn't know what actions to set, what specific ideals he's after, or what. Granted, a poster wouldn't be able to give THAT much detail, but it should help get a leg-up better than that!

In order for inspiration to be useful to a person's life it should at least give some strong hints as to how a person can channel that inspiration into some meaningful actions towards embodying an ideal. Without it, inspiration becomes nothing but a momentary feel-good emotion that goes nowhere but away.

How would I improve that poster? Well, since it was located near the kitchen I'd put several examples of actions that entail a person actually striving to reach his full potential in the dining room and kitchen. Tasting with full attention to develop a palate. Perpetually putting 100% effort into speed for inch by inch improvements. Exercising the gold and platinum rule for costumer service, and continuous learning from mistakes and refining of methods. Just some kind of examples to give hints so that people can actually set goals around them. At their present state, work posters like these are just read out of curiosity and dismissed.

Identifying my qualm in this way plays a partial role in influencing my writing, as I try to structure it in a way that makes a person want to DO something about it. I post very concrete examples of dedication to show what it means to be dedicated, and hope someone will learn to concretely model himself accordingly. I post very detailed analysises of techniques that have worked to improve my life, with very perceivable or measurable results, and hope that should boost someone out of their seat. I don't just cite fancy ideals: I try to frame them in what concretely *embodies* those ideals, making their inspiring elements longer lasting and actually useful to model behavior after.

Inspiration is a useful tool for anyone striving to be his best. Learn how to use it effectively, not just for others but primarily yourself. A full spiritual tank takes you miles.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

For the Love of Ice Water!

I LOVE cold showers and ice baths. It took me a very long time to incorporate them into my life, but once I made of habit of it I find it to be an indispensable routine, and take almost nothing but cold showers, and an ice bath at least once a week. I love the shivering, the tingling, the burning skin, the brain feeling like it going to expand out of your ears, going buggy-eyed, and hyperventilating. Don't you?

You don't? . . . No I think *you're* ridiculous! Let me get you into them!

In pursuit of a better body I had stumbled upon some information (here, too) about the benefits of cold-water therapy, the practice of taking ice cold showers or baths for 10-20 minutes to induce certain health benefits. They're even a cultural staple in some parts of the world, such as the banya where they sweat it out in a sauna and then jump through holes in the ice. I discovered all this back in Michigan and was persuaded to try it, and while it's not at all an easy process the benefits are amazing. Good and convincing enough that cold bathing is all I ever do practically now, with few exceptions.

Tip Reminder!

Shameless solicitation for money.

Hey guys, I just want to remind you that I have a tip jar around here, which you guys can utilize to show your appreciation! I'll expand it later with more options, but for now it is what it is.

Don't forget that this blog is available for free for everyone, forever. I write these articles of my own initiation apart from any supporting organization for yours and mine benefit, to hone my own thoughts and give you the fruits of my experimentation and thinking (and the mistakes I make, so you don't have to commit them). It takes time and effort to keep this up.

As such, if I have added value into your life, it'd be awfully nice for you to add some back into mine! Trading, wouldn't it be? Such displays of appreciation would encourage me to keep on at this practice, and to even intensify it with even more scrupulous thinking, research, experimentation, and so forth. 

Do what adds value to your life, but I hope I have added some into yours to have deserved some as as well.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Changing Mind About X: Being More Assertive Instead?

[Darn it; I unintentionally made the Youtube video unwatchable. I fixed it now.]

Since Factor X is mainly about speaking, I guess a video is more appropriate than an article, so here's a 12 minute talk about how I'm rethinking my views on Factor X and am planning to do something different.

Primarily, it's this person's comment that's making me rethink the whole matter.

And I feel like I have to say it: The red mark on my chin is a cumbersome shaving knick. Harsh sideways cut.

In the comments, I'd appreciate links to the resources requested, if you have any.


Thursday, January 17, 2013

Your Pain, and The Vegeta Mistake

There's a saying that goes around to the tune of "Learn from other people's mistakes so you don't have to commit them." Well, my mouth is sore from the bitter medicine shoved in, so let me relay to you some personal lessons harshly learned, which a shocking amount of people commit in today's world, as you'll soon see.

First, my harsh truth: Very few people, almost nobody, cares about your pain. Few care about your emotional difficulties, the ailments in your body, or the hardships in your life. They don't care about your struggles in life, or how much injustice has been committed against you. Most people will simply not pay mind to the pain, and many will go so far as to outright blot it out.

Though -- stick with me -- I'm not trying to paint the landscape of human nature black, but rather convey a truth I've learned about human nature and behavior, and what fosters authentically healthy relationships full of happiness, shared values, camaraderie, and so forth.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Getting Ahead by Keeping Quiet

Some conjecture about garnering success in business, at least when you're on lower ladder rungs.

In contemplating my own frustrations in my career I wonder if I had done a lot of unnecessary talking about my ideals at work. I'm not a rude boaster by any means and have never taken to preaching to people or annoying them with my views, but a part of me wonders if my talk of ideals actually provoked irrational people into sabotaging my efforts, like while I was a bartender.

One thing I mentioned before in being a bartender is that my managers intentionally manipulated my shifts to make sure that I didn't become competent at my job. They shouted at me when I engaging in costumer service. If I were away but for a second, they would take drink orders away from me even though they should have called me. I was even once banned from using a cash register during a meal rush, even though it was one of my duties, as the manager didn't want me to get the practice in. Overall it's obvious that the deep degree of interference they tossed at me was to prevent me from developing as a bartender, even though I was "promoted" to that position. They even kept me on the worst shift possible with no prospects for better hours. The whole thing was a joke.

Back at that restaurant I happened to be vocal about my aspirations for the restaurant industry. I spoke with great enamor and proved I was passionate by being a very, very, very ambitious employee. I utterly proved that I wanted to get ahead in the restaurant industry and be successful, and while I did discuss my interests, ideas, and ideals, I didn't push them in anyone's face, lecture, or anything. I just put myself out there and minded my own business.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

It's Only Small Inside Your Head

In trying to spur motivation in my own self I always wonder if there's a "hierarchy of mind," some kind of deep, fundamental thing I could chant to myself or do to stir interest. I wonder about it in the context of such a thing as strenuous living: Sure, that's practical, but is there deeper things that ought to motivate a person beforehand, to push them into strenuous living before they make that choice?

I'm unsure, but as of far I can at least give a friendly piece of advice: The world of possibility is overwhelmingly infinite. You have unlimited choices which you will never get through in your entire lifetime, and within our lifespan there's no way we can run out of things to learn, do, accomplish, or whatever even if we try to exert ourselves every single moment.

One thing I frequently worried about in younger days is whether mankind would learn everything there is to know within my lifetime, and then there'd be nothing to do. Nothing to do except wile away life . . . . . being bored. But when I pick up book or watch good educational programs, or watch good movies I see over and over again that there's no WAY I could "finish" my life. There's simply not enough time in the world for me to stuff it all into my head.

That's the kind of stuff I keep in mind whenever I'm in such a gloomy mood that I can't fathom ever enjoying anything in life ever again . . . as if all the recipes in the world possible have been tried out, all the restaurants opened, all the principles discovered . . . just nothing left to do in the culinary industry. And yet: I crack open a cookbook and immediately get overwhelmed at how much hasn't been done yet, and how it'd take more than a lifetime to get to it all.

If you're feeling down and thinking that happiness is impossible to you -- thinking that there's nothing in the realm of possible -- nothing left to do -- read a cookbook, watch Mythbusters, or whatever, to get a temper of what's out there in the world, and be spurred by the fact there's TOO much to do in the world, even, the exact opposite of any sort of boringness.

The world is rich; live strenuously in it.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Defeating the "Ooze"

I have a weird thing for a really destructive mental habit: The "Ooze." I suffered from it, and I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of people in traditional schooling systems suffer from it too. Simply put, I define it as the particular state in which it feels "good" not to think, such as when a person might coast or "shut off" their mind, and then a flow of endorphins creep in, rewarding them for turning down the brain like that. When I first became an autodidact it was practically the number-one obstacle to developing my intelligence.


Sunday, January 13, 2013

Down With X!

Flash of common sense: If "Factor X" is doing so much damage to my life, then why don't I make it my primary self-improvement goal to address it? Doy!

As a reminder, there's this thing that seems to haunt my endeavors in my career and in human relationships called "Factor X," which makes people react to me in a wild variety of ways, from getting shooken up with rage, paralyzed by anxiety, or even doubting that I'm mentally competent at. By spending so much time unaware of and being unable to grapple with Factor X I've suffered much bullying and injustice, and I strongly suspect that Factor X is really damaging my career prospects, for despite skill and experience I have a tough time finding a job, even in this particularly robust city of Dallas where hiring is abundant.

Well, to tell the truth I think Factor X is primarily my voice and speaking habits, though it could be more complex than that. I think this because I've noticed that whenever I get those negative or odd reactions from people it's not until I speak to them; it's not until my voice hits their ears. Beforehand they're totally neutral . . . but speak those sentences and a wide variety of facial contortions can come. I'm not engaging in hyperbole when I say some people have shivered with rage at my speech, and in every incident I conducted myself with the appropriate manners! It's totally flabbergasting to witness that anger.

If my speaking problems are the root, then my hearing-impairment is the root of that. Let me a explain a little bit.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Could Anyone Be More Serious Than This Painter?

Via Wikipedia Commons
Ah, excellent news! Not only shall this be my first post on which I post a sample of just what greatness is possible in this world -- and how it's possible to adopt certain methods to obtain it -- but it's also going to be that painter guy I mentioned whose documentation of his journey was lost to me. I saw the link a few times, and then couldn't find it again for years. I was astounded when I first saw it.

His name is Johnathan Hardesty, who is an artist in Texas who has his own exhibitions and is particularly well-known for an interesting thing he did on the website Concept Art. He started a forum thread about a particular self-improvement venture he was going to undertake: He was going to dedicate himself to creating one painting per weekday and four on the weekends, and uploading every piece for the forum members to see, so that he could emulate the work ethic of an artist he admired and, too, reach his own level of artistic mastery.

He maintained that practice for nearly a decade. The goal in the abstract sounds like something someone would start and give up on . . . but he did it. Almost a whole decade.

That is symbolic of dedication. People, as you can read, were immensely moved by what he had accomplished, and some are even attempting to do what he did in their own threads. He was nothing but an amateur when he started, but he practiced so much that people are able to see his documented journey from having a high school technique to being a formal teacher with his own exhibitions.


What I recommend doing is setting up two browser tabs. Have one start at the beginning of the thread, and another at the end. Move forward in the former and backwards in the latter, and see just how heavily the skill contrasts.

In life it's important to pay attention to people like these because these are the people that prove just what's possible to human-beings, are the most potent spiritual fuel, and actually push people into bettering their lives. You can talk and talk about ideals, but nothing is so refreshing as seeing someone practice them and prove their merit, stirring up an outrageous fire within oneself. I want to make it a regular posting habit to display people like these to push people out of their seats. This is what you can have in life, if you do things like what Mr. Hardesty did! There is a definable and understandable process!

Do you have knowledge of any other feats like this? Send it to me, so I can have fodder for future posts!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Gardening in One Place: Dedicating to a Direction

Another thing to consider in strenuous living is that when you actually do make headway in developing a passion, how do you keep dedicated to a specific direction? However original the path may be, how do you keep yourself going further and further in one direction rather than getting tempted by so many paths that you're constantly restarting rather than building on top of achievements?

That is a difficult question indeed, for while strenuous living may have helped me identify the culinary arts as my ultimate passion, it hasn't been sufficient in telling me where to stick my efforts. I can imagine myself enjoying one of many things: Being an entrepreneur, selling gourmet foods online, writing books, owning a restaurant, and so forth. Strenuous living was sufficient to tell me that such is the range of choices I would most thoroughly enjoy in life, but it hasn't been enough to push me into one particular direction.

I confess I don't have any answers, but a little conjecture may be helpful. A hypothesis and one thing to keep in mind.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Deliberate Thinking for Deliberate Intelligence

I don't trust institutionalized education, at least our public educational system. Aside from the piling evidence of how they fail students at large, I do know they've failed me as an individual. I was put in Special Education for an inaccurately perceived mental disability -- my hearing-impairment affected my speech -- and what I was taught was done with such incompetence as to hardly have an impact. Going into college I felt like I hadn't even deserved to graduate grade school, so I dropped out to become an autodidact. Never have I learned more than when I decided to teach myself.

Still the hours in a day and my life's arrangement can pester me. I don't know yet what I'll achieve in 2013 career-wise, but at present it seems that menial labor in some form will what's currently available, and it makes me uncomfortable in lieu of desire for a scholarly mind. I may not become a scholar, but I value the highest potency of a mind possible to me, the most intelligence, strongest memory capacity, and broadest cognitive function. I want to be so SMART.

Yet, with a temporary fate in menial labor will I be hindered? Will time for books be too little? Will I be unable to read, to study, or to actually learn or hone my mind to any significant degree with all the labor involved in life? Will my overall potential for intelligence thus be reduced? Questions like that worried me. How could I possibly balance a restaurant career with lots of physical action involved with the pursuit of a strong mind?

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

When you Fail, Reset the Sails

I've mentioned before that I have quite some career frustrations. Despite being in the restaurant industry for nearly three years and having demonstrated my abilities and skills, I remain at the bottom of the ladder career-wise, having gotten stuck with deceptive employers, employers who lie to me to keep me stuck in the dish pit, or bosses who can't promote me since I'm unfortunately irreplaceable in washing dishes, despite being capable of so much more, a marketplace injustice. Other people with lesser abilities, lesser passion, and weaker work ethic has surpassed me, via going through different channels or simply being of no use in an arduous job as dish washing.

Most puzzling is that there seems to be a "Factor X" in my appearance, which makes people respond to me in very unpredictable ways. Despite myself conducting in perfectly proper manners, people will shake with rage at the sound of my voice or chuckle in paralyzing anxiety, smirk at me continuously like a child, or even believe I'm mentally disabled. Is it because my hearing-impairment adds a touch of accent? That I hold my shoulders up? That my face has a certain definition? I don't know, but I suspect this Factor X is costing me a lot of opportunities, in employers thinking something in "wrong" with me, "off," or whatever. Most of the jobs I get are by pure luck, because an employer pitied me, or they're so desperate for labor they hire me without examining my merit. Many then get "surprised" by my ability, and then work to hold me back, as I'm either too irreplaceable in my starting position, or because bosses get envious at my exertion, trying to hold me back so they feel better about their lesser interest and ability. It's demotivating. I'm currently trying to work towards self-employment to get rid of the barrier employers currently impose on me.

The most important thing I've realized, however, is that there's multiple, even tons of different paths I could take to my ultimate goals. I had been thinking too strictly in terms of how I understood how other people got to their goals, and INCORRECTLY believed that I too must follow in those footsteps in some way, as if they were absolute requirements, and forgot all about the other options.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

I'm Actually Alive: My Youtube Channel

I'm going to try not to do more than one post a day -- lest I put incredible demands upon myself -- but since my queue is stockpiling I guess I'll make an exception and let people know that I have a Youtube Channel.

While irregular, it might be interesting to vary up articles with speeches, or to do a regular back and forth for whatever. Additionally, as I mentioned I have a speech-impediment it might do well for me to document my speaking improvement this way, especially since this is a form of practice for me. In the future I'm likely to get better equipment, but my current recording equipment is all I've got, so I've got to work within the limits.

So what do you think? Got some suggestions on how I could improve my voice, my body language, or rhetoric, even in recommending some resources? How about video suggestions? When could I define when it's better for me to do a video than an article, and vice versa?


Be Patient with Your Weaknesses: Hitting Walls

Strenuous living is an important key to having any sort of passion, but it's also important to be on guard against pitfalls that may make you wary of its effectiveness, as incorrectly interpreted pitfalls can end any productive venture. The pitfall may just be inherent in the beginning stages, a flaw in a person's methodology, or whatever, but if a person is unable to see that, he may give up an excellent practice altogether permanently.

For instance, in the Art of Manliness article I linked to in the above article (linked to above), it mentions a vast multitude of regular habits F.D.R. maintained, and seeing how much he was able to accomplish in a day may seem immensely intimidating, so much so that one may never attempt it. A person may examine his current lifestyle, see that he doesn't have 1/10th of that productive capacity, and never shoot for it, believing it impossible.

But we all start somewhere. It's like with muscles: You wouldn't look at a weight lifter's record press and say it's totally impossible to you. You would know that it took months, if not years, of training to get him up to that current point of strength, and he's only able to lift such an impressive amount due to his prior training. He probably started out just as weak as everyone else starts out as the default in life. Nobody is born ripped.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Passion in Life Through Strenuous Living

Before anyone immerses themselves into any deep endeavor in life it's important to know exactly how to develop a passion in life. Ah yes, the infinite problem of knowing what to do with yourself, i.e. your purpose in life. So many endless people are haunted by this, not knowing how to address it, and can go decades, or even an entire lifetime not having strong interests. All too often do people tragically die without having dedicating themselves heartfelt into something, and I've personally witnessed what kind of pain and hysteria it can induce, especially during birthdays, the time of year one reflects on life.


 The main folly I see in people is that they tend to wait until "something comes along." They suppose that the answer will just approach them around the corner, or that they'll just have an epiphany on it one day somehow, so they stagnant idle in life at workaday jobs and mildly relaxing weekends until that eureka moment comes, which never does, as shown by the poor souls who depart the world without learning their calling.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Business in Prime-Moving: Creating the Prime-Movers, and Protecting Them

Quite interestingly, without even intending to brainstorm it I think I may have come up with a beginning business venture. It'd be a small source of income at first -- not enough to break away from a job, I'd suppose -- but a very worthwhile beginning with lots of potential.

To remind you, I recently lost my job and in contemplating the market I'm starting to think it may be better for me to try something by my own hand. Even with my experience and abilities, and even the fact I live in an area with lots of job creation going on, it's insanely hard for me to find a job, especially a job that contributes to my long-term goals. The reason is unknown to me too, for while I have a nice personality, useful experience, and good ability, there's some "Factor X" that makes people get angry or scared at me, or otherwise view me as "off." Is it because my hearing-impairment gives me an accent, or that I try hard to speak properly? That I hold my shoulders up high and keep good posture? That I look funny, somehow? I don't know, but despite my best manners and demonstrated capabilities this "Factor X" keeps costing me opportunities, so most of what I get are jobs where the employer feels sorry or pity for me, is so desperate for labor they hire me without looking at my materials, or whatever. It's foolish, and I can't correct Factor X, not knowing what it is.

The secondary difficulty is that, even upon getting a job, my ability and interest in doing my best can actually serve to my detriment. My first job in Texas involved people getting more and more hostile as I worked harder, and them doing their best to make me do the most menial stuff while they hoarded the satisfying work, such as when I was a bartender who had to do all the laborious cleaning while my bosses frequently stole drink orders from me. Most of the employers I've dealt with are severely irrational.

In the rare and occasional times I've been able to deal a costumer my own brand of ideas I've always gotten pleasing results, whether it'd be giving a costumer full sit-down service at the bar or catering to random requests, so I think I have the potential to contribute very good services/products that I'd be rewarded better for if an employer weren't standing in my way. There's good people out there I know, where I could get ahead, but my is it tough finding them!

Since 2012 I've taken the practice of integrating all my new years' resolutions under a theme to dedicate what kind of year I'd like it to be, and 2013 is the year of Prime-Moving for me; that is, when I do my best to become the kind of prime-mover I can be. It's a term I've learned of from Ayn Rand, which is used to describe the greatest, most talented men within a society, the people who follow their own judgement and thinking ("moving" themselves) and contribute vastly great things to the world ("moving" the world), such as inventions, scientific and philosophical discoveries, and so on. They're summed as the people who move themselves and move the world, but don't let themselves be moved by the irrationalities of others, such as by subjugating their talents to people-pleasing or caving into demands from nosy busybodies. Think Steve Jobs, Thomas Edison, Walt Disney. I have no idea yet what kind of prime-mover I could become, but to become one in my own right is my desire this year.

While walking around I happened to be bouncing around some ideas about self-improvement, and in thinking about the Year of Prime-Moving, what if I tried making some money off specialized writing on the issue of self-improvement and mental health for prime-movers? That is, the rarely used and unique methods for developing yourself into the absolute best human-being you can, and how to deal with the stresses that come inherent within such a pursuit.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Losing My Job: Quitting the Market and Creating My Own?

Well, it looks like a long talk is deserved. Due to bitter circumstances I lost my job . . . through my own fault, I openly admit . . . and remain unemployed after about fifteen days. In fact, I'm questioning if I even want another job, and am considering trying a hand at self-employment. Let's go through the specifics.